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Déjà vu, much?

It’s funny how the Universe brings things full circle… not always in a happy, “ohmygodI’msogladthiscamefullcircle” type way, but sometimes in a way that puts you in your place.  A way that teaches you a lesson and inspires you to reflect.  I haven’t meditated in a few days, perhaps this is a reminder that I need to get back in touch with the Universe.  Nonetheless, I am being shown nonverbally what I’ve been dying to know.

The same way I let someone down is exactly how I was let down in the past…  Excuses coated with sugar with some whipped cream on top.  Everything explained so beautifully and heartwarming that you almost for a second don’t get hurt.  Yeah, don’t let the “dancing around the bushes” fool you; sometimes brutal honesty isn’t as brutal as having someone make you believe you ever had a chance.

Believing you had a semblance of a chance only leads the delusional to assume they could ignite that spark again.  What they don’t know is that even if they had the smallest chance in the world, nothing would change the simple fact that it’s just not gonna happen.  But who wants to say that?  Especially to the delusional!  It just isn’t enough.

The delusional need something to grab on to, they crave hope.  It’s easy to just say what they want to hear so that they’ll “go away.”  But once you open that door to their fantasy, you’re in trouble.  I’m sorry, it’s true, and to take back your word about said fantasy will only lead the delusional to say you’re in denial, or to come up with a multitude of other excuses (you’re going through something, you’re stressed…).

It’s really sad, isn’t it?  Or is it sadder to be the detached soul who cannot feel for anyone and can’t let anyone in?  Let’s bring some astrology into this equation:  My Ascendant is Aquarius.  I have my blips in time where I feel so emotionless that it’s almost frightening.  Actually, correction: it IS frightening.  However, when I fall into the bottomless pit that is my Venus in Pisces and Moon in Scorpio, I am frightened too at the depth of my emotions.

I can safely say I understand both sides and to be so involved with your emotions is a blessing and a curse.  To feel this fairytale romance is spiritual and amazing, when it’s with the right person.  But falling for someone who is unavailable, abusive, detached, problematic, or dangerous?  This is life-threatening.

Honestly I want to toss my emotions out the window at times.  I don’t know what I’d do without them and I’m sure I’d go crazy, but being a full-time Aquarius seems like a stress-free life to me.

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E•MO•TION

Shout out to Carly Rae Jepsen for the title of today’s post.  I know I have been posting astrology lately, however this blog is supposed to encompass all of my interests and thoughts.  Here is a personal post…

I saw a tweet made by Gucci Mane the other day.  I know, some people might be questioning where this is going and how he would have said something relatable to mention in this post.  However, he is actually one of my favorite people that I follow – being that he posts words of wisdom that inspire me frequently.  Here is one that resonated with me recently:

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The fact of the matter is that you are a product of your own environment.  This energy that others contain can “rub off” on you.  Once that negative energy has entered you, it becomes you.  People are attracted to those who have the same energy and hold the same vibration as them…  How can you attract the “right people” if you are surrounded by the wrong ones?

The right people are not attracted to this energy I am putting out.  I complain that no one wants to be my friend, and that isn’t necessarily true!  Some people do want to be my friend, but they are not the “right people.”  These right people see that I have occupied my circle with the wrong people.  They do not want to corrupt themselves with that energy… So they run away.  Far.  I only have myself to blame.

It is almost too easy though to fix.  Get rid of the toxicity.  Easier said than done.  I have been at a point in my life where it was easier to suffer with somebody toxic than to suffer alone.  However, I must realize that this “being alone” is one of the most beautiful things I can do for myself.

Being alone allows me to explore and get to know myself.  I can regain confidence, learn new things, find new hobbies, or work a new job.  Doing these things will lead me to being a better person at the end of the road.  At the end of this road will be light – and this light contains beautiful people and beautiful things.

After all of this alone time where I have been able to regroup and better myself, I will be rewarded with everything I have ever wanted.  I set the intention that this will be a successful path that I embark on.  I wish myself all of the luck in the world, and I know I can prosper through this journey.

Xo,

Ash

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Gemini…

♊ May 21 – June 20

Geminis are extremely smart and quick, particularly with words.  They are a mix of everything amazing in life: intelligent, adaptable, and communicative due to the different qualities in their sign.  Geminis do not allow life to pass them by – they are curious about life and want to be a part of everything it offers.

Duality is a huge part of being a Gemini: the symbol for their sign symbolizes this!  The concept of twins embodies the Gemini spirit, as they usually want more than one thing in each part of life.  This goes for jobs, hobbies, even lovers…  Geminis love and welcome change and always want a new experience.  This does not necessarily come from a place of greed, but the crave for something fresh and exciting.

Geminis tend to have a lot of unfinished tasks because of the physical inability to handle the workload they put on themselves.  Geminis love people and talking to them!  People are drawn to Geminis because of their amazing skill of communication.  They are great at conversation, persuasion, convincing, even gossiping.

A downfall of Geminis are their superficiality and tendency to judge something too quickly and not examine its depth.  Regardless, people are drawn to Geminis because of their amazing advice and intellectual conversations.  While they love to give advice, if things get too dark or deep, a Gemini might turn away because of their distaste for negativity.

Routine is not in a Gemini’s vocabulary, so do not try to pin one down.  If dating a Gemini, it is wise to keep things new and exciting or else they might stray…

 

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Taurus…

♉ April 20 – May 20

Taurus is quite similar to Aries in my eyes.  I have two close friends who are Taurus’.  Let’s get into them…

Taurus people are extremely dependable and are there for people when they need them.  They are stubborn and are determined to get what they want in life.  Taurus is a fixed sign which means they do not welcome change easily.  This stubbornness comes into play again when they reject change.

What people do not know about Taureans upon first knowing them is that they really do have a temper.  Similar to Ariens, they can build up anger within them.  However what sets Taureans apart is that they will not show their anger so easily, and can keep it under control, much like a bull (their animal).

Taureans love their money and possessions.  They have excellent taste and love to share as well.  Taureans also crave security and prefer permanence over temporary “joys.”  Living with a Taurus person can be hard due to their secretiveness; Taureans are quite private people.  They can also be opinionated which can turn certain people off.

Taureans are sensitive due to their hopelessly romantic hearts.  They crave the real things in life: a stable relationship, honest friendships…  If this means having a few close friends, then so be it.  People are drawn to Taureans’ brilliant taste and financial wisdom.  However, being too dogmatic can turn people away…

 

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Aries… Me

♈ March 21 – April 19

This is the first sign of the zodiac, so naturally this sign is assertive and powerful.  Aries people are spontaneous and constantly have new ideas.  With this comes a certain impatience when their brilliant concepts cannot be brought to term.  Ariens tend to not finish tasks because of this lack of patience.  Sometimes things will not go their way, and this lesson must be learned.

Aries are sociable and talkative initially.  They love to hear themselves speak almost.  They love to share their opinion and have things go their way.  When things are not in the favor of an Aries, they will face that opposition with annoyance.  Aries feel as though they are the leader, and being that they are the first sign of the zodiac, they truly are.  They have this confidence and always strive for the best.

Aries are generous, reckless, and enthusiastic.  They are also optimistic; certain things may really bother an Aries but it will not last for long.  Ariens love to be independent and will defy anyone who tries to boss them around.  For an Aries, this is simply unacceptable.  They do what they want!

Ariens live lavishly and like to spend their money, however will probably never remain in someone’s debt for long (if at all).  Ariens like to be in control, even if they doubt themselves occasionally.  They know they can handle it in the end.  People are drawn to Ariens because of their excitement and ability to tackle rough situations with optimism and aggressiveness.  Some people will be intimidated by an Aries’ tendency to be “bossy” and speak their minds a little too much, however, many people appreciate these qualities.

People will tend to not mess with Ariens because of their knack for annihilating their opponents in arguments.  This is probably for the best…